regretting is useless

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Kalau aku di berikan peluang untuk mengubah kesilapan pada masa lalu, aku ingin mengubah kesilapan aku sewaktu aku berumur 12 tahun. Aku telah menolak peluang yang hanya datang sekali dalam seumur hidup aku. Iaitu aku telah MENOLAK TAWARAN UNTUK MEMASUKI MAKTAB RENDAH SAINS MARA (MRSM)... I was regretted for what I’ve decided...Erm, it wasn’t my decision actually but I admit it was my fault too. I didn’t give fully explanations to my father until he misunderstood of me... I was damn happy when I received the form to get into MRSM n when I was arrived at home I quickly throw my bag n ask my father about the offer. But, it was my fault when I didn’t explain to him properly.

“pa, bole cia masuk sekolah asrama ka?” I asked my papa
“tidak bole. Nanti ko tmbah jajal & melepak tidak tentu arah!” he scolded me.
“ Tp, bukan senang mau dapat tawaran ni.” I tried to convince him
“ go to your room. Give back the form to your teacher!” he yelled to me..!

I was disappointed with my papa’s decision. He didn’t know the real stories but it was my fault too for the reasons why he didn’t allowed me to go for a boarding school. He thinks that I still can’t take care of myself. N because of my bad behaviors like I go to swimming without his permission, I go to the mall near to my school for a shopping, I stayed in the school until evening just to play with my friends n disturb the lessons then I ever spotted by my papa coz meander.. Next morning I went to the staff room n gave the form to my teacher.

“ Patricia, btul awak tolak tawaran ni? Byk pelajar mahu n bukan senang nak dapat tawaran ni.” Cikgu Shumiza keep asking me.
“ Papa x bagi cikgu. Tawaran dr SMAKK pun papa x bg apalagi dr MRSM”
“ Bapa awak tau ka ini tawaran dr MRSM?”
“ Cikgu, papa tetap xmau tu”
“ kalau mcm tu x apalah. Awk bole msuk kelas”

ARGH!!!kecewa ada jugak tp apa bole buat papa tetap x bagi aku msuk skola asrama. Balik dr skola aku trus msuk blik. Bole dikatakan 1 mggu aku mogok x mau makan. Bila dah lama perkara 2 berlalu bru papa sedar dia silap..dia myesal sbb x dgar penjelasan aku sbb dia x taw offer yg aku dpt tu dr MRSM!!lgpun aku jd tokoh pelajar!!heh,past is past!.Masa berlalu pergi n aku dpt tahu aku msuk SEKOLAH MENENGAH SHAN TAO n aku x pernah terfikir utk skola di situ coz I ever insulted that school tp aku termkn sumpahan aku sndri..

“ skola ni semua cina jd kalau aku masuk x byk kwn lepas tu bida lagi..nsb baik aku x kasi msuk ne skola dlm list yg aku isi ari tu..arap2 dpt masuk lok yuk”..<---takbur kan aku bercakap last2 skola yg aku hina e2 la yg aku dpt!

Adui. Aku mau msuk lok yuk tp x dpt n ex-bf tym budak2 dulu msa drjh 6 dpt ALL SAINTS SCHOOL jd aku pun nak msuk sana..papa nak jugak pindahkn pergi skola tu tp bila fikir balik kakak skola kat situ jd aku memg kena control abis..so, terima jak la skola shan tao tu n im trying to make myself comfortable with my new surrounding, new friends & the most important is my new experience! so…e2 jak la perkara yg aku plg menyesal abiz!!jd nasihat aku utk org2 d luar sana len kali kalau mau bg penjelasan make sure org tu dlm keadaan sedar n emosi mereka ok! Ehheehe… ! ~LOLY_TRISYA~ ;p